Prayers

Dear God,

You know every facet of this situation. You know everything... and I'm not going to deny You the infinite knowledge you possess based on my limited understanding.

God, you know how much Ben and I want this house. You know how much money we've already invested. You know our timeline. You even know how much our hearts would break if we weren't able to get it.

However, since You know all these things, Father... I choose to trust You. I know that in everything that happens in our lives, even in the things that seem bad at the time, You can work it out to be for our good. I've seen it happen so many times in my life I can't doubt it now. So I know even in my worst case scenario, which would be losing the house, I still believe that You would never do something for my harm because I know You only want the best for me. I trust Your word, God, when it says that You never leave us or forsake us. You feel my hurt and my pain and I know that You'll still be here-- when I cry or rejoice.

I know things seem impossible right now: the situation with the mortgage company, with Rural Housing, and everything else; but I also know that nothing is impossible for You. If it's in Your will for our lives, Father, I pray that you will allow this to happen, but if it's not then I accept that You have our best intrests in mind.

But, God, I truly believe that everything about this situation-- from mom finding the house, to the bank accepting our offer, to the appraisal, even to us being able to buy the things we needed with our tax return money-- I believe You've worked all that out. So it doesn't make sense that we'd come this far for it to fall apart.

You know everything we've done and so I pray that you'll be my Jehovah Jirah, my provider, and Jehovah Shalom, my peace. You'll make a way even when there doesn't seem to be a way and You'll help me believe harder than I ever have before.

I'm afraid, I won't lie to You, but, I trust you. My Abba Father, I trust you from the bottom of my heart and the depths of my soul. I know that no matter what happens You're going to take care of Ben and I as you have always done.

I love You, Father God, and I thank You in advance for what You're already doing; whether that's moving the heart of the VP of the mortgage company, or just comforting Ben and I.

I trust you, I trust you so much. And I bless Your name for being so magnificent as to even care about such an insignifcant person in such an inconsequential situation. Thank You for loving me and for listening and for moving in ways that only You can.

I give You all the praise, glory, and my love,

Bethany