*sigh*

Dreams are cruel, but despite last night I know today is going to be a good day. Well, even if it's not, it's going to be. This month has gone by so fast, it's almost like a blur. Almost Halloween, and in my own weird way of counting, almost 2 months 'til Christmas. *sigh*

Yesterday was such a good, weird day. It was like, I was really happy, but there was something missing. It's not this strong presence anymore, but a lingering one... Like a left-over tear. And the thing is, as hard as it is, I don't know if I want the feeling to go away. I see and talk to other people, but I... can't.

I just have to trust Him in all of this, because even though I don't understand... I know He has my best interests in mind, and that no matter what, I'm going to be happy and fulfilled... someday. I just need to remember that, and stay grounded, when I feel like there's little pieces of me floating everywhere.

The pathway is broken and the signs are unclear

And I don't know the reason why You brought me here

But just because You love me the way that You do

I'm gonna walk through the valley

If You want me to

'Cause I'm not who I was when I took my first step

And I'm clinging to the promise

You're not through with me yet

So if all of these trials bring me closer to You

Then I will go through the fire if You want me to.