Well, hello again. It's been a little while, hasn't it?... We just got back from vacation and I hardly slept last night. Maybe it's being back home, maybe it's having to be by myself. Whatever it was, here's what I've been thinking about since I tried to go to sleep at 2 o'clock this morning. And I thought I would share since my thoughts are just dying to get out of me anyways. So, here we go.
I think I've lost one of the best friends I've ever had. And it absolutely kills me. A part of me died when I came home to find they had disowned me completely. The horrible part is that it's entirely my fault, my doing. I don't know what to do and the hardest part is knowing that I was just that easy to write off, you know? I mean, yes, I did a pretty terrible thing, but still. I know he still cares for me... And I for him. I just don't know where we go from here. At least, if nothing else and notwithstanding from what happens we'll always have the memories.
Also, completely unrelated, I found something out that confuses me terribly. I was perusing a website with one of my friends and I discovered two very different things that were supposed to be the same thing. You know, I know that I don't talk to this person very much... and when I do, it always seems to end up being awkward or weird, but I don't understand why they'd feel the need to do what they did unless... I don't know. And see, the thing is, I just don't care enough to find out. This whole thing is ridiculous and I'm sick of putting myself out there. So, for the sake of my sanity, I'm going to drop this subject and move onto the next before I either say something I don't mean or confuse myself any further. Bah.
Well, that's where I am and if you got this far, I commend you. But now that I've quieted, for the most part, my assortment of musings I'm going to attempt to go just back to sleep. And if that fails, I'm sure As You Like It will knock me out cold.
I think I've lost one of the best friends I've ever had. And it absolutely kills me. A part of me died when I came home to find they had disowned me completely. The horrible part is that it's entirely my fault, my doing. I don't know what to do and the hardest part is knowing that I was just that easy to write off, you know? I mean, yes, I did a pretty terrible thing, but still. I know he still cares for me... And I for him. I just don't know where we go from here. At least, if nothing else and notwithstanding from what happens we'll always have the memories.
Also, completely unrelated, I found something out that confuses me terribly. I was perusing a website with one of my friends and I discovered two very different things that were supposed to be the same thing. You know, I know that I don't talk to this person very much... and when I do, it always seems to end up being awkward or weird, but I don't understand why they'd feel the need to do what they did unless... I don't know. And see, the thing is, I just don't care enough to find out. This whole thing is ridiculous and I'm sick of putting myself out there. So, for the sake of my sanity, I'm going to drop this subject and move onto the next before I either say something I don't mean or confuse myself any further. Bah.
Well, that's where I am and if you got this far, I commend you. But now that I've quieted, for the most part, my assortment of musings I'm going to attempt to go just back to sleep. And if that fails, I'm sure As You Like It will knock me out cold.
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