I'm so tired.
You know, I always believed that my life would yield me a ridiculously satisfying romance. The ones that they write stories about, the kind they put into film. And though I still believe that wholeheartedly, it hurts to believe. It hurts to wait.
I'm just sick of settling. So often I feel like I settle. And I know that somewhere out there is a man that will meet every standard. I know somewhere there is a man who will love me and treat me the way I deserve to be treated. There just has to be. I think what my problem boils down to is sometimes I just have trouble trusting God. His timing and my timing don't quite match up. I don't doubt in the least, but I want so badly to just be satisfied.
Now, I don't really want a relationship. I'm at a point in my life where I'm far too selfish to devote my time to anyone but myself. However, I do want a friendship. I want to be appreciated. But more than anything, I desperately want to meaningfully kiss someone again. Kisses aren't kisses unless you genuinely care... I just don't know how much longer I can take this weird, limbo state my life is in.
I'm going to stop complaining now and go to bed.
You know, I always believed that my life would yield me a ridiculously satisfying romance. The ones that they write stories about, the kind they put into film. And though I still believe that wholeheartedly, it hurts to believe. It hurts to wait.
I'm just sick of settling. So often I feel like I settle. And I know that somewhere out there is a man that will meet every standard. I know somewhere there is a man who will love me and treat me the way I deserve to be treated. There just has to be. I think what my problem boils down to is sometimes I just have trouble trusting God. His timing and my timing don't quite match up. I don't doubt in the least, but I want so badly to just be satisfied.
Now, I don't really want a relationship. I'm at a point in my life where I'm far too selfish to devote my time to anyone but myself. However, I do want a friendship. I want to be appreciated. But more than anything, I desperately want to meaningfully kiss someone again. Kisses aren't kisses unless you genuinely care... I just don't know how much longer I can take this weird, limbo state my life is in.
I'm going to stop complaining now and go to bed.
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