I just realized that it's been a while since I've actually written something that's not a quote, song lyrics, or a random, aggrevated poem. So here I go...
Sometimes life just sideswipes me.
You know, I can think I'm at a place where I'm content enough with myself to handle basically whatever life, boys, or the like could throw at me, but then disappointments run rampant. For example, a boy I was getting to be pretty good friends with turned out to be a total jerk (Imagine that)... This same boy told me the only reason he was pretty good friends with me was so he could try to have sex with me. Yes, he actually had the gall to speak those exact words to me.
I realized then that though things may be going fabulously, something or other always comes along trying to ruin your outlook. And I honestly think it's how we react to those moments that defines the person we are, the person we are destined to become.
I think God's really trying to tell me with all this nonsense that I need to focus more on Him than on anything else. And as lonely as I get sometimes, I know that there is, indeed, someone out there for me. Someone that He's hand-picked, just for me. I suppose learning to be patient is the hardest part.
In moments like this, however, on days like these, I can't help but sense that I'm on the verge of something monstrously amazing. A change is coming my way, I can feel it in my bones. I don't know what it is, I don't know when it's coming...
But I'm so excited.
Sometimes life just sideswipes me.
You know, I can think I'm at a place where I'm content enough with myself to handle basically whatever life, boys, or the like could throw at me, but then disappointments run rampant. For example, a boy I was getting to be pretty good friends with turned out to be a total jerk (Imagine that)... This same boy told me the only reason he was pretty good friends with me was so he could try to have sex with me. Yes, he actually had the gall to speak those exact words to me.
I realized then that though things may be going fabulously, something or other always comes along trying to ruin your outlook. And I honestly think it's how we react to those moments that defines the person we are, the person we are destined to become.
I think God's really trying to tell me with all this nonsense that I need to focus more on Him than on anything else. And as lonely as I get sometimes, I know that there is, indeed, someone out there for me. Someone that He's hand-picked, just for me. I suppose learning to be patient is the hardest part.
In moments like this, however, on days like these, I can't help but sense that I'm on the verge of something monstrously amazing. A change is coming my way, I can feel it in my bones. I don't know what it is, I don't know when it's coming...
But I'm so excited.
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