God, I'm sick of people who bring me down. This up and down and hot and cold thing doesn't really do it for me. I just don't understand and I don't deserve to be sad... I deserve to be exceedingly and ecstatically happy. I think, after everything, I deserve that much at least.
I just can't get over this. I can't stop the perpetual motion of whatever it's turning into. And I feel like it would be easier not to put my feelings out on the wire. To not allow someone to have the room to hurt me. But, I'm afraid if I don't open my heart now, I'll never be able start again.
I feel like my life is in slow motion. I see pictures of the future and it's very exciting, but it's taking so long and it's hard for me to get there. A string of seemingly endless upon endless days that all loop and intertwine and run together. I keep wondering how long it's going to be before I lose myself in counting down.
Bah humbug.
I just can't get over this. I can't stop the perpetual motion of whatever it's turning into. And I feel like it would be easier not to put my feelings out on the wire. To not allow someone to have the room to hurt me. But, I'm afraid if I don't open my heart now, I'll never be able start again.
I feel like my life is in slow motion. I see pictures of the future and it's very exciting, but it's taking so long and it's hard for me to get there. A string of seemingly endless upon endless days that all loop and intertwine and run together. I keep wondering how long it's going to be before I lose myself in counting down.
Bah humbug.
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