Someday

I can feel my heart beating in my chest and it feels like it breaks a little more with each beat. We haven't talked in two days and the more he refuses to talk to me, the more discouraged I get. How can he just cut me out of his life so easily? Why would he?... Tomorrow'll be the first Wind Ensemble concert he's performed in that I'm not cordially invited to. And I feel so empty. I supported him in everything he's done because I know how great he is. Guess it doesn't really matter very much to him though.

I feel like my other half, my partner-in-crime, my most intimate friend has died. I feel like the person that I love is gone and there's nothing I can do to make myself feel better. I've been praying and praying, trying to make heads and tails of this and the more I think about it, the sadder I get. I'm trying to be self-confident and I try to remember how fabulous I am, but without him here my world just doesn't seem quite as bright.

I wonder if he feels it too. I thought he knew me, I thought he understood... I just wish he could feel a portion of how I'm feeling now.