Phew, take me out of the oven, 'cause I'm done. You know, for the first time in close to three weeks, I actually feel alright. I feel as happy as I can be and, really, that's all I was hoping for. That's all I could've asked for. What a roller-coaster these weeks have been. I've gone from being desperate to being a witch to being numb to being okay. Which is where I hope to stay. I'm not pretending I'm perfectly wonderful, because I'm not. I just...
It was so strange sitting there with him, almost surreal. I kept remembering things, as I'm sure he did... And more than anything I kept on trying to be angry but the more I tried the less I was. I went into this, preparing myself for the worst, and I probably got the best outcome that I could've hoped and prayed for at the moment.
I'm so glad you were honest. And I, personally, thank you for that. And, I want you to know that as much as I didn't trust you going into this, you earned a little of it back. I think that's important to know. I also know we're changing, I know this is going to be difficult eventually, but I also know that we will be able to be friends again someday. Tonight just kind of solidified it for me. I'm praying for you constantly, even if I'm not talking to you, and I'm missing my friend, always.
It's bittersweet, this feeling. Not a death, not a rebirth. Just a happy medium. A mixture of relief and sadness and a little bit of joy. I know I'll probably go through days where I'm sad and days where I'm mad and even days where I'm questioning again, but for tonight... I feel better.
I'm going to try not to worry about tomorrow or the day after.. I have my druthers, but I know, in my heart, that one way or the other, everything is going to be just fine.
It was so strange sitting there with him, almost surreal. I kept remembering things, as I'm sure he did... And more than anything I kept on trying to be angry but the more I tried the less I was. I went into this, preparing myself for the worst, and I probably got the best outcome that I could've hoped and prayed for at the moment.
I'm so glad you were honest. And I, personally, thank you for that. And, I want you to know that as much as I didn't trust you going into this, you earned a little of it back. I think that's important to know. I also know we're changing, I know this is going to be difficult eventually, but I also know that we will be able to be friends again someday. Tonight just kind of solidified it for me. I'm praying for you constantly, even if I'm not talking to you, and I'm missing my friend, always.
It's bittersweet, this feeling. Not a death, not a rebirth. Just a happy medium. A mixture of relief and sadness and a little bit of joy. I know I'll probably go through days where I'm sad and days where I'm mad and even days where I'm questioning again, but for tonight... I feel better.
I'm going to try not to worry about tomorrow or the day after.. I have my druthers, but I know, in my heart, that one way or the other, everything is going to be just fine.
When I no more behold thee,
Think on me
By all thine eyes have told me,
Think on me
When hearts are lightest,
When eyes are brightest,
When griefs are slightest,
Think on me.
Think on me
By all thine eyes have told me,
Think on me
When hearts are lightest,
When eyes are brightest,
When griefs are slightest,
Think on me.
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