Overdue

Someone I love is hurting. And it's partly because of me. This situation is just all around bad, but I can't help but think that maybe it would've been better had I not said anything or had it not been me that he chose.

The reprocussions of my confesstions led to tears, hurt, embarassment... and I feel terrible because something that should come so simply, acceptance and respect, is so hard-earned. I'm not a bad person and neither is she, by any means.
I just wish that it wasn't so hard on him.

I wish that he didn't feel responsible or that he let me down, like I know he does. I wish that I could make things automatically better. I wish, with all my heart, that he wouldn't hurt anymore. Because when he hurts, I hurt for him.

I know it'll get better. It has to. The only question now is the inevitable "How long?"

How long before it goes up in smoke?.... How long before she accepts me?